Tuesday, July 18, 2006

i haven't posted in so long, cause i haven't felt the need to share what's been happening in my life. is that more of my selfish nature manifesting itself. am i really that insensitive sometimes?
but lately, i've found so much happiness, that even that happiness doesn't make me a better person, that i forget to take into consideration that happiness of others. why is it that we always end up hurting the ones we love most?
it's amazing how moods can change oh-so-quickly. through all the pain and heart ache that seemed to be happening around me, i thought i was safe. i thought it wouldn't affect me. and then when you least expect it, it all hits closer to home. closer than you ever realised.
yesterday i was sooooo happy. . .i haven't laughed sooo much in ages. i hadn't felt so free in ages. then last nite, the ugly world of reality decided to knock on my door again. my blind spots thrown straight into my face.
last nite. . .as if to make up for all my happiness, came all the pain. why? i really don't know. lemme correct myself, it's not an ugly world, merely faintly beautiful truth.
i never meant to hurt anyone. i'm grateful for all the things you've blessed my life with. my fondest moments. . .
there's so much i'll never forget. beautifully broken, but hopefully we'll turn out the better for it.
it hurts. . .hurts to think that my happiness is partly at the expense of others.
i'll always keep that love though. i'll let go, but i'll still love.

ceelilya inspired at 11:09 AM

{xoxo}

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

i think i'm really enjoying my holidays. . .hanging with the friends, and really spending time with them =)

yesterday we finally celebrated angeline's birthday. us girls took her for a nice, simple dinner at chi. it's been awhile since the 4 of us went out together. . .there was angeline, carine, chyn & me. naturally when you find the 4 of us, you definitely can hear us. we're pretttty loud. laugh heaps too.
the food was yummyyy. . .& we ate so much! we bought bubbly too =) flavour was rank tho. lol. after dinner we went to baskin & robbins too (& the bday girl actually shouted us all icecream!) lol. after that tho, we had to drop angeline home cause she had to go visit her mummy in hospital.

chyn had to go somewhere else. . .sooo. . .our original plans had to change. in the end carine & me decided to go movies alone. BUT we wanted to watch "just my luck" but guess wat!? us slightly unlucky girls missed the last screening time. BLEH. so we thought oh well, let's just go hang out at carine's place.

so on the way home we called jase, & he said he'd bring us out to gelares! ehehe. . .but we didn't eat icecream again thankfully. too full eh. met up with his frenz at gelares. . .then decided to go movies. .garden city. those bois reckon they're racers eh. zooming thru the streets, competing with each other & going thru red lights!!! ahaha. that was funny. jason followed his friend right thru a red light! how dumb!!!!

anyhow. . .sadly we decided to watch superman returns. . .-_-. there was nothing else to watch. we'd practically watched everything else. haihh. . .wasn't a really great movie. bumped into andrew in the cinema, so i was sitting nxt to him & we kept nudging each other & talking crap abt the lame-ishness of the movie. LOL. & if i didn't see wrong carine cried!!! awww. . .

didn't get home till late & i left my keys at a friends place on monday =x tried to get back into the house with as little drama as possible. worked a lil more on the rc tickets when i got home. then was forced to go to my room. bleh. so stayed on the fone for abit & eventually fell asleep.

overall, hols have been good. . .more interesting than i expected ><>

ceelilya inspired at 10:24 AM

{xoxo}