Monday, June 26, 2006

soo sooo sooo much happened this weekend. & i'm too lazy to tell. but heaps of things have been happening. & i kinda missed out on alot too. so i'm catching up on wat i don't know. . .lol. & there are some things i wish hadn't happened either. went out with friends alot. partied quite alot =x ate too little. ahahah. (so i'll be doing heaps that this week ;p)

but hey, i had fun. & still plan on having heaps of fun. right now i'm quite tired though. perhaps i should cut down on going out a lil. ahaha. one things for sure. . .late nites are a lil too much now. i reckon early morning should be banned!!!

ceelilya inspired at 12:07 PM

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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

yayyy. . .holidays alredi!!! wow. i never thought this day would come. today i felt sooo free. . .so much time, so little money. so i couldn't go shopping =(
the past few days have been filled with so much stress & last minute cramming.

you should have seen the state of things in the jewellery studio on monday. that was like our last day to complete our jewellery peices for submission. everyone was beginning to get really nervous and panicky. strangely i was rather calm, especially when compared o jaqui (my desk buddy) she waso soooo worried & kept fluffing abt the place. she din even have time to stuff her face with food as usual. LOL. stayed till late, & i think it really got to our heads, cause insanity levels were steadily rising & i honestly believe our behaviour would have seemed hilarious to the random passer by!

anyway by tuesday the hard work came to an end. the "big day" of reviews. 3 hours of getting our work marked & assessed by our teachers. i must say, our class produced some really fantastic work. & now that semester 1 has ended, there will be no more burnt hair, broken nails, grubby fingers, and smoke filled eyes.
but i think i'm really gonna miss being with the rest of them in the jewellery studio. no more jaffles, loud music, crazy laughing, dancing arnd, bullying the techy, HEAPS of food, swapping lunches, feminising the boys, exposed bum cracks =x. ahahhaha. i reckon us second yrs have the most interactive yr group =)

after reviews yesterday everyone turned seemed so relaxed and ready to have fun again. first thing i did was meet up with other frenz at the tavern. lol. had lunch with sheryl, king and jason, and alvin? after that jason dropped me home & i sleeeeeeppppptttt fro like 2pm till 9pm. LOL. was meant to go movies with a fren, but i kinda couldn't wake up (since i din sleep the nite before) sorri >< was such a nice sleep tho!

anyways, today i went back to the studio to make some jewellery for a fren & the environment was so different. the studio was practically empty. so sad. i caught adrian stealing food fro mmy locker!!! naughty technician! lol. he thought he wouldn't see me for the nxt 4 weeks. but yeahh. it just seems that without the rest of the class the studio is pretty much lifeless.
hopefully i'll get to see all my jewellery hunnies again some time soon. . .
i went shopping today!!! but bought nothing. LOL. that's something new. ehehe

ceelilya inspired at 8:48 PM

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Saturday, June 17, 2006

todayyyy. . .i woke up early. how wrong is that!? saturday is meant for sleeping in!
had to go to uni to finish off creating hollow forms to submit this thursday. howeverrrr. . .didn't really get much done. got to uni & jac and me just were NOT in the mood to do anything. we like started doing our work for 10 mins, then decided we were hungry. & jac and me have a reputation on being the biggest junk food cravers in class, but the smallest -_-" so we raided al's locker & found popcorn! *pop*pop*pop* so we ended up eating & talking crap ><><) but like jaq & me were being silly and hiding behind benches throwing unpopped corn kernels at jen & her lil bf!

anyways, after that i went with my cell for lunch. was pretty ok. ate too much tho. felt sick later.

went back to uni. . .continued working on my jewellery peices. . .& managed to finish 2 peices ( am i spelling rite!?) bleh. anyhowwww. . .got distrcted again. & jaqs & me had leftover popcorn so we were like trying to pop them open with the gas torch but ended up making the whole studio smell like gas & burnt corn kernels!!! everyone got into it & even the 3rd years couldnt resist the fun! lol. we laugh so much & so hard together!!! had to rush off to work after that. . .got to work late due to perth's dodgy public transport system!

ohhhh. . .when i got to work it was soooooo busy. the most hectic nite we've had since mother's day! i did not stand still for one moment. was quite bad actually =( had to chase arnd serving ppl, & with a memory like mine, it's challenging! but hey, i got a reallly good work out. running back and forth. usually, i have quite a high tolerance level, but it was pushed to its limit today. aunty rose was bugging me again. she honestly thinks she's better. i respect her cause she's older, but she's gotta keep in mind that i actually KNOW wat i'm dooooing, so she doesnt have to tell me like 10 thousand timessss!!!! arghhhhh. & she talks so loud & blames me for everything in front of everyone so they can hear!!! i got realllly annoyed at her, & ended up snapping at her =x the kitchen thought it was funny tho -_- i honestly just hada goood go at her. i feel bad now tho. . .i was too straightforward. ah wells. . .the boss gave me bacardi to calm me down after that!!! i guess it worked. i was a chirpy ready to serve person again.

ahahahhahaa. the boss was sooooo tipsy eh. he always hits the johnny walker when work gets busy. crazy things happened. . .one of the guys spilt beef in black bean sauce on my WHITE shirt. . .so i had to wash it. & yeah, wet white shirts aren't good. =/ omg. & uncle meng told the guy nxt door that i thought he had pretty eyes!!! so baaaddd. then the restaurant was vverrrry noisy. all the customers were likes suppperrr doooperrr happy. and made crude jokes abt everything we served them. blehhh. ermm. towel slapping fights? silly happy birthday renditions? we saw it all tonite. lol.

i think i'm gonna hush up now. i'm blabbering. i'm happy. i need to sleeeep. ehehe

ceelilya inspired at 11:24 PM

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

F O U N D. . .i found my student id card =) well, rather one of the other guys saw it sitting in the library & realise di must've misplaced it. . .again. . .

it really is getting very bad, my issue with forgetfulness. it's not like i purposely try to forget! it really frustrates me. the more careful i try to be, the more i seem to disappoint myself.

i prayed so hard for my student card to appear! i really can't afford to lose anything else right now. i'm so grateful it's found =)

been busy in the jewellery studio pretty much all week. my fingers no longer have a sense of touch in their tips. they've been abused & used so much that they're all swollen & numb =( seee. this is what happens when you procrastinate. quality work becomes hard to produce, and you need to sacrifice so much more!

hopefully i've learnt my lesson. i'm desperately praying for enough strength & memory to get through the rest of this week.

ceelilya inspired at 10:40 PM

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Monday, June 12, 2006

yayyyy!!! *whistles* australia just beat japan! LOL. take that y'all! you neva thought it possible eh?
ROFL. . .wow. i'm so proud of australia. suffer sam. . .your darling japan just got whipped in the last 8 minutes!
i have not watched soccer in soooo long. i've forgotten how exciting it can be. & distracting.

yesterday was footy. eagles won! woooot! lol. the guys at work wouldn't believe me and they lost a HUGE bet. made so many calls just to confirm the scores. and as usual yesterday, daddy, sam & me got told off by mum. . .again. for being "silly" during the service. dad kept falling asleep so me & sam were drawing on him & poking his ears with saliva coated fingers. ahahaha. speaking of ppl sleeping. so was chewi!!! & jason was sending me pics of the sleeping slug via bluetooth & mum wasn't too pleased abt that either. haihhh.

my mood is neutralised now. i was rather cranky today. things happening, old issues coming back to haunt me. . .i still can't stop thinking, why did things have to turn out this way and result as such? must i really be stifled by those silly restrictions that "supposedly" must be "respected."
but on the bright side. . .i finished one more assignment and have only one left.
to top that australia just WON! yeahhh baby. =)

errmm. . .sadly tho. . .my bum aches. LOL. (yes i can hear the roars of laughter again) sheeeshhh. . .you see, yesterday after lunch, melvin was holding the door open while everyone walked out the restaurant. BUT, upon seeing me, he SHUT the door. . .(just what happened to chivalry? gosh) lol. . .and welll. . .i uhmmm. . .errrr. . .opened the door myself, then. . .i think i was trying to kick melvin or something, but i slipped and stacked it. i fell hard and full on.
it's one of those moments that i don't think the guys are ever gonna let me forget -_-
(ya ya. u can stop laughing now. sooo evil)

why am i soo clumsy!? arghhhh. . .& today i was so sore. like seriously, sitting down hurts and there's a big bruise.
anyways, i am trying my best to gather my mind back into one sensible piece, but sometimes i feel so confused i just don't know how to *sighs* i miss alot of things

for all of you having exams, i know i can't feel your pain but i do remember yous and wish you all the best!

ceelilya inspired at 10:59 PM

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

I F . . O N L Y . .(familiar phrase?)
if only. . .you ever wondered what would've happened if only?
well i've had enough of that. lately that's all i've been doing and it's making me so tired. it's making me feel sad, cranky, moody, temperamental and yucky. i'm sick of thinking that things would be different if only i'd made another choice, done something else, thought other things, or acted another way. it's seriously infuriating sometimes.

reveries are good. . .it's when they consume you that you realise reveries are also a nightmare. i want to be able to live life with no regrets. i know it sounds really cliche, but i reckon there's more truth in it than you actually realise. but to live without regrets means that you have to be confident of yourself. never doubt what you're feeling, and be certain of who you really are and want to be, what you want to do. you gotta know what you want.

i'm not saying be all self-absorbed and cocky. just be yourself. don't think if only. . .lol. i'm in a undecided mood right now, hence the random rant.

this week has been up and down up and down. i kinda feel dizzy. one thing i know for sure. i'm broke =/ (i now own 2 pairs of sass & bide jeans =x 1 pair i kinda got free. but that has been my biggest expense this week! bought at the moment of utter frustration in a bid to calm my moodiness. LOL)

another things that's for certain. i swear boys gossip more than girls. i know some girls out there agree with me! ;p

ceelilya inspired at 1:17 AM

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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

last night i was talking to a friend about friendships & relationships. which is more important? there was like a 10 minute silence over the phone when the subject was touched. unspoken words of trouble it felt like. during that silence was when most thoughts were running wild.
i honestly am worried. . .like. . .there has to be a balance right? there's a fear that a relationship becomes so important that friendships are lost or even forgotten. but thinking about it, it could also work the opposite way. a friendship becoming so important that a relationship is ruined. can u really feel which direction you're heading, or do you really become numb to the rest of the world?

your always gonna be happy for the person cause he/she has found something that makes him/her happy. . .but deep inside it still hurts that you've been left at the side. somehow you can feel insignificant or even betrayed.

i think communication is realllly important. so is trust. right now i have too much to think about.

if you ever read this i want you to know that you are very very muchly important to me. . .and i won't ever forget about you. and if i do you have the right to slap me silly. (actually you have to k?) you've been there for me through so much, and even though we're so similar, but yet so different, you seem to understand me better than anyone else. and if you ever feel that i've displaced/misplaced you in my life, i want you to be able to talk to me about it. stubborn as we are, it's better that we talk or even argue about it than keep it bottled up. pent up feelings will only mean frustration.

sorry if i seem distant. it's any ishy thing. . .and so much is happening. i guess in a way it's true that it can't be helped. kinda scary. . .but i know this one thing for sure. true friends are forever. & corny as it sounds. . .friends are my true love. lol

"some people you meet for a moment. . .some for a season. . .and some for a lifetime"

(i accidently posted this up at sinfulindulgences. lol. embarassing)


ceelilya inspired at 10:43 AM

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Monday, June 05, 2006

lol. moreee photos. i'm home alone & i'm bored. this is the first time in ages i've been at home by myself!!

i still love my previous cell group =)
chermaine, jason, angeline, chewi. . .sheryl, pj. . .& at the bottom, charlyn, me, yagen

carine & me in my kitchen. . .lol. we were discussing why girls tend to get fatter easier. cause when we're hungry we actually bother to do something abt it. boys. . .they'd rather starve. lol
don't have any actual pics of our food cause we ate most of itl!


ceelilya inspired at 12:28 PM

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yesterday was sunday (no duh ><). . .i went to church as usual. & it was acually a pretty interesting service. lol. dad & me were drawing pics all over the bulletin again =x

so after church we went with my cell to lunch at happy meals. the place was practically taken over my zion ppl. sooo many ppl were there. after that the guys rented out a movie to watch but i had to go home & get ready for work.

work continues to be a nasty thing. lol. kinda fun still, but a little trying. everyone at work enjoyings taking teasing mee. . .am i really that easy to pick on!? (they're trying to set me up with any guy related to the restaraunt!!!) why am i getting crap abt that from all around!?
so after work carine picked me up & we decided to go to uni & study.

uni seemed pretty busy for a sunday night. & we bumped into the usually ppl. yvonne, sheryl, jason, angeline, chewi. . .& so i had this mindset that i WAS gonna get work done, but my production rate just wasn't satisfactory. i got so little done. . .AND was too busy chatting. . .AND SO. . .i left my usb (or rather shyong's usb thumbdrive) at abacus. . .AGAIN. this is like the 3rd time i've lost it. *cries* now i'm really screwed. my assignments are all on that usb!!!

what i cannot understand tho is how i got so distracted that i didnt realise i'd left it there till 2am. . .& by then it was too later to go back & get it. . .mum would have chucked a spack. bleh. anyway. . .first thing this morning right after i woke up, i went to (in my daggy pjs
) to look for it. . .AND COULDN'T FIND IT! *horror* i couldnt sleep well last nite knowing that i've lost it again. . .& now i'm so miserable i feel like binging.

sometimes i reckon that what others say abt me is really true. if i could loose my head i would. i reallly do think i could make that possible, even tho it hurts me to admit it. =(

last nite was still fun tho. after "studying" at uni, carine came back to my place & we kinda raided the fridge. hungrryyy. . .she had some fried rice i brought home from work while i rummaged through the pantry looking for something sweeter. in the end we settled for making pancakes =D. the 1st batch was so rank tho. (yucky instant mix) LOL. we added choc chips & nutella. . .not-so-great a combination. sweeeet tho
second batch was yummmy. . .we chopped up apples & boiled it with cinnamon & brown sugar, then added it into the batter. . .yummm. . .+ more apples & honey. . .but my the time we'd finished the second batch we were so full from eating the garlic bread we were making while preparing more pancakes.
yah yah. we are "little, short, chubby" piggies. shup!!!

made quite abit of noise. mum woke up & scared me. she was like wat r u girls doing!? wat's the time!?
both of us at almost the same time: "*argh*jump* HI! errrm. 1:30? *cheeky grin* we're hungry. we're cooking. . seeee. we're eating *laugh*"

oh dearrrr. i'm still staring at a pile of pancakes wondering where the usb is. . .why am i so clumsy!? i define the word forgetful with the utmost sense of utter dumbness ><

ceelilya inspired at 11:23 AM

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Saturday, June 03, 2006

ceelilya inspired at 2:31 PM

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Friday, June 02, 2006

so it's been almost a yr since i last posted. i guess i became semi detatched from the web world. back for now as it's almost hols & i've had ppl bugging me abt how oftn my blog dies.

ermm. . .so since last yr i guess a lot has happened. fair share of ups and downs. currently my major trouble is finding a healthy balance between work, study, and play. i downright cannot find anything to balance me. lol

i'm still as forgetful as ever. . .i loose things at a rate faster than u can imagine =x

uni is kinda losing its entertainment. my motivation has kinda died down. i cant seem to find enough inspiration for jewellery these days. but i still love it. =) design is my passion. nomatter how much inspiration i loose it will always be a mjor passion in my life.

i'm believing in truth again =) so a big thankyou to all the ppl out there who've been there for me these past few months. u neva gave up on me, & celia is back to plague ur life. . .i love u all muchly!!!

ceelilya inspired at 10:19 PM

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